Conquering My Fear–I Did It! (And So Can You!)
I mentioned in my last post Loving My Introverted Self that I had received an email several weeks ago asking me to conduct an interview and I was terrified. Well, guess what? I did it! All the extroverts out there are probably thinking “Big deal,” but I know my fellow introverts are giving me a thumbs up! This was a HUGE step for me and I’ll tell you why.
I LOVE working for myself, and I love working alone. This is pretty typical artist behavior and I am grateful every day that I can do this. I’m not a hermit, but I came close to being one this winter, and I savored every moment of it. I am way more comfortable on my own than in a crowd or, heaven forbid, in front of a crowd. But I knew that this opportunity came to me for a reason and that somehow it was part of a grand plan. What it is I do not know, but I have made a deal with myself to be open to whatever comes my way. It doesn’t mean I’m trading my introverted self in for an extroverted version. No way. I happen to love my introverted self.
The interview. On the plus side was the fact that this was just an audio pre-recorded interview–no video involved. And it was my beloved teacher, Deborah King, who I was interviewing. Still, boy was I fretting. Knowing that there are probably many of you out there who could sense my fear and would love to conquer their own fear, I am going to share with you how I got through it–with flying colors, I might add!
My day-before-the-interview preparation:
- I meditated.
- Ate healthy meals and drank lots of water.
- Turned off the computer, took a relaxing bath and got to bed at a decent hour.
The day of the interview:
- Woke up and meditated.
- Ate a healthy breakfast.
- Reached out to friends to please keep me in their thoughts and prayers from 11am-12pm.
- Was immediately fortified by the words of support that instantaneously came flooding in!
- Went over my notes.
- Drank Tulsi tea and took a dose of Rescue Remedy.
- Doused myself with Young Living Peace and Calming essential oil.
- Asked my guides to remove all blocks, help me do a good job and take away any fear I was feeling. (If you don’t know what the heck I’m talking about, check out this online program about spirit guides by Deborah King. Learning from Deborah how to connect with my own guides was one of the most valuable lessons she has taught me.)
- Positioned my turtle totem (Slow down!) and lucky stone next to the phone.
- Poured myself a big glass of water because thankfully, many people gave me this tip. Amazing how your saliva dries up when you’re nervous–evidently it’s all part of our fight-or-flight wiring.
- Covered my apartment buzzer with tape and put a Do Not Disturb sign on my door.
- Prayed that the fire engines would remain in the station for an hour, there would be no screaming from the people on the street, and that the UPS deliveryman would not show up. I live in NYC and it can get very noisy in my apartment.
- Almost showtime…Did some breathing exercises and some EFT (Tapping)
- Took the leap. Made the call.
The hardest part, as it turned out, was interviewing Deborah for a full hour. Even she agreed–that’s a really long time for an interview! But I finished my questions just about on the dot and once again, all was right with my world!
Of course, I have a sneaking suspicion that Deborah placed a template of her beautiful, calming energy around me before we began. It’s one of the perks of being her student. As soon as the interview got underway, a good 75% of my anxiety melted away. And when we were finished, my nervousness had transformed into the most amazing, empowering feeling. I had to put some music on and dance it out–it was overwhelming!
Here’s the thing. If I can do this, so can you. So, think twice before you turn down an opportunity to shine your light because of fear. Maybe my little rituals will help you, but likely you will have some of your own. Hopefully, my list will get shorter and shorter over time. We can be quiet, we can be introverted, but we still need to poke our heads out once and awhile and share our gifts.
On my way to a workshop in Arizona last weekend–days before my interview–I glanced out of the airplane window and this is what I saw:
It looks like a dragon, right? I looked up the meaning of dragon as an animal spirit guide and this is what it said: The most common message a Dragon totem carries to us is a need for strength, courage, and fortitude. Hmmm…Interesting.
My interview with Deborah will be part of the online Conscious Life News Tele-summit which will be shown on consciouslifenews.com sometime in mid-March. I will let you know as soon as I have the exact date!
Thanks for your support!