Conquering My Fear–I Did It! (And So Can You!)

March 3, 2013

I mentioned in my last post Loving My Introverted Self that I had received an email several weeks ago asking me to conduct an interview and I was terrified. Well, guess what? I did it! All the extroverts out there are probably thinking “Big deal,” but I know my fellow introverts are giving me a thumbs up! This was a HUGE step for me and I’ll tell you why.

I LOVE working for myself, and I love working alone. This is pretty typical artist behavior and I am grateful every day that I can do this. I’m not a hermit, but I came close to being one this winter, and I savored every moment of it. I am way more comfortable on my own than in a crowd or, heaven forbid, in front of a crowd. But I knew that this opportunity came to me for a reason and that somehow it was part of a grand plan. What it is I do not know, but I have made a deal with myself to be open to whatever comes my way. It doesn’t mean I’m trading my introverted self in for an extroverted version. No way. I happen to love my introverted self.

The interview. On the plus side was the fact that this was just an audio pre-recorded interview–no video involved. And it was my beloved teacher, Deborah King, who I was interviewing. Still, boy was I fretting. Knowing that there are probably many of you out there who could sense my fear and would love to conquer their own fear, I am going to share with you how I got through it–with flying colors, I might add!

My day-before-the-interview preparation:

  • I meditated.
  • Ate healthy meals and drank lots of water.
  • Turned off the computer, took a relaxing bath and got to bed at a decent hour.

The day of the interview:

  • Woke up and meditated.
  • Ate a healthy breakfast.
  • Reached out to friends to please keep me in their thoughts and prayers from 11am-12pm.
  • Was immediately fortified by the words of support that instantaneously came flooding in!
  • Went over my notes.
  • Drank Tulsi tea and took a dose of Rescue Remedy.
  • Doused myself with Young Living Peace and Calming essential oil.
  • Asked my guides to remove all blocks, help me do a good job and take away any fear I was feeling. (If you don’t know what the heck I’m talking about, check out this online program about spirit guides by Deborah King. Learning from Deborah how to connect with my own guides was one of the most valuable lessons she has taught me.)
  • Positioned my turtle totem (Slow down!) and lucky stone next to the phone.
  • Poured myself a big glass of water because thankfully, many people gave me this tip. Amazing how your saliva dries up when you’re nervous–evidently it’s all part of our fight-or-flight wiring.
  • Covered my apartment buzzer with tape and put a Do Not Disturb sign on my door.
  • Prayed that the fire engines would remain in the station for an hour, there would be no screaming from the people on the street, and that the UPS  deliveryman would not show up. I live in NYC and it can get very noisy in my apartment.
  • Almost showtime…Did some breathing exercises and some EFT (Tapping) 
  • Took the leap. Made the call.

The hardest part, as it turned out, was interviewing Deborah for a full hour. Even she agreed–that’s a really long time for an interview! But I finished my questions just about on the dot and once again, all was right with my world!

Of course, I have a sneaking suspicion that Deborah placed a template of her beautiful, calming energy around me before we began. It’s one of the perks of being her student. As soon as the interview got underway, a good 75% of my anxiety melted away. And when we were finished, my nervousness had transformed into the most amazing, empowering feeling. I had to put some music on and dance it out–it was overwhelming!

Here’s the thing. If I can do this, so can you. So, think twice before you turn down an opportunity to shine your light because of fear. Maybe my little rituals will help you, but likely you will have some of your own. Hopefully, my list will get shorter and shorter over time. We can be quiet, we can be introverted, but we still need to poke our heads out once and awhile and share our gifts.

On my way to a workshop in Arizona last weekend–days before my interview–I glanced out of the airplane window and this is what I saw:

Conquering My Fear–I Did It! (And So Can You!) Barbara Sinclair Dragon

It looks like a dragon, right? I looked up the meaning of dragon as an animal spirit guide and this is what it said: The most common message a Dragon totem carries to us is a need for strength, courage, and fortitude. Hmmm…Interesting.

My interview with Deborah will be part of the online Conscious Life News Tele-summit which will be shown on consciouslifenews.com sometime in mid-March. I will let you know as soon as I have the exact date!

Thanks for your support!

Love,
Barbara

57 Comments
  1. thumbs up barbara. congrats to you on a job well done!!!
    😉

    • i have always had a fear of public speaking. i write fairly decently and in high school i would get an “a” for the writing and a “b” for the delivery. always freaked me out.

      living on an ashram changes thing, and one gets thrown into the fire and one must have faith and fly. leading meditation changed my fear, and the way that i saw myself. being a lay reader in my church also propelled me forward. if the priest is not around, i lead worship. it was scary at first. i would come in, not knowing the priest was out sick. someone would meet me at the door and ask me to lead worship.

      i can do it now. no worries.

      you are on your way to an even deeper knowing of your “self”.
      peace and love to you on your journey- home.

  2. thumbs up barbara. congrats to you on a job well done!!!
    😉

    • i have always had a fear of public speaking. i write fairly decently and in high school i would get an “a” for the writing and a “b” for the delivery. always freaked me out.

      living on an ashram changes thing, and one gets thrown into the fire and one must have faith and fly. leading meditation changed my fear, and the way that i saw myself. being a lay reader in my church also propelled me forward. if the priest is not around, i lead worship. it was scary at first. i would come in, not knowing the priest was out sick. someone would meet me at the door and ask me to lead worship.

      i can do it now. no worries.

      you are on your way to an even deeper knowing of your “self”.
      peace and love to you on your journey- home.

  3. Congratulations fellow introvert! Job well done. Amazing article and your growth is unbelievable. I strive to follow in your footsteps. Love you! Kathi (P.S. During a Teal Scott workshop yesterday someone asked a question about dragons – synchronicity! She said they exist in the 4th and 5th dimension and are not what everything thinks they are – i.e. fire-breathing, etc.) That picture is so amazing – I have never seen clouds like that before. That was a special gift for you.

    • Hi Kathi! Thank you so much! Interesting about the dragons…but they weren’t clouds. It was on the ground and I’m not sure if it was water or what. I grabbed my camera and took the shot and then we were past it. Yes indeed, what a gift! Here’s to introverts poking their heads out! I will be here cheering you on! 🙂 xoxo

  4. Congratulations fellow introvert! Job well done. Amazing article and your growth is unbelievable. I strive to follow in your footsteps. Love you! Kathi (P.S. During a Teal Scott workshop yesterday someone asked a question about dragons – synchronicity! She said they exist in the 4th and 5th dimension and are not what everything thinks they are – i.e. fire-breathing, etc.) That picture is so amazing – I have never seen clouds like that before. That was a special gift for you.

  5. Congratulations fellow introvert! Job well done. Amazing article and your growth is unbelievable. I strive to follow in your footsteps. Love you! Kathi (P.S. During a Teal Scott workshop yesterday someone asked a question about dragons – synchronicity! She said they exist in the 4th and 5th dimension and are not what everything thinks they are – i.e. fire-breathing, etc.) That picture is so amazing – I have never seen clouds like that before. That was a special gift for you.

    • Hi Kathi! Thank you so much! Interesting about the dragons…but they weren’t clouds. It was on the ground and I’m not sure if it was water or what. I grabbed my camera and took the shot and then we were past it. Yes indeed, what a gift! Here’s to introverts poking their heads out! I will be here cheering you on! 🙂 xoxo

  6. Barbara, good for you! The only one who had any reservations that you would shine at this was your sweet self — why do you think Deborah trusted you to do it? (She’s just a little discerning, to say nothing of psychic so probably foresaw the entire thing.) I can’t wait to hear it when it airs. This is such a big step forward for you and I am so proud of you! Getting your dragon voice out there to “light people up”! Congratulations! You go, Girl!
    Love,
    Nancy (a big fan)

  7. Barbara, good for you! The only one who had any reservations that you would shine at this was your sweet self — why do you think Deborah trusted you to do it? (She’s just a little discerning, to say nothing of psychic so probably foresaw the entire thing.) I can’t wait to hear it when it airs. This is such a big step forward for you and I am so proud of you! Getting your dragon voice out there to “light people up”! Congratulations! You go, Girl!
    Love,
    Nancy (a big fan)

  8. This is awesome!! Congratulations! I love reading your posts. 🙂

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  9. This is awesome!! Congratulations! I love reading your posts. 🙂

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  10. There’s such a calming energy and mindfulness to your ritual of preparation, how lovely! Great job Barbara and can’t wait to hear the interview!

  11. I am so amazed by your courage. Congrats!! I can’t wait to hear the interview. I love that you shared your process.

  12. I am so amazed by your courage. Congrats!! I can’t wait to hear the interview. I love that you shared your process.

  13. I am so amazed by your courage. Congrats!! I can’t wait to hear the interview. I love that you shared your process.

  14. Awesome, Barbara!!! I’m glad that you did it!

    Let’s skype this week!

    Rach

    On Sun, Mar 3, 2013 at 6:02 AM, Barbara Sinclair Holistic Health and Healing wrote:

    > ** > Barbara Sinclair Holistic Health and Healing posted: “I mentioned in my > last post Loving My Introverted Self that I had received an email several > weeks ago asking me to conduct an interview and I was terrified. Well, > guess what? I did it! All the extroverts out there are probably thinking > “Big deal.”, but I “

  15. Great post Barbara… I definitely will incorporate your rituals into my life as an introvert. Thumbs up!

  16. Great post Barbara… I definitely will incorporate your rituals into my life as an introvert. Thumbs up!

  17. Great post Barbara… I definitely will incorporate your rituals into my life as an introvert. Thumbs up!

  18. Great job Barbara. When I speak in person I always find the papers I am holding are shaking. But lately I have noticed they are not as much. Keep shining!!

  19. Great job Barbara. When I speak in person I always find the papers I am holding are shaking. But lately I have noticed they are not as much. Keep shining!!

  20. How cool is that! Looking forward to the interview!

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