Yesterday I signed a lease on a new apartment in Jersey City. Really, I did. This is not another false alarm like my almost-move to Asheville in the fall of 2012. I am a bit terrified to report that this is the real deal.
This MAJOR life event unfolded in less than a week. Although many years have led me to this decision, one day I just decided that I could not afford to live in my beautiful NYC apartment any longer. It had been the cause of many sleepless nights and I had swept the reality of my situation under the rug for far too long.
Why not another less expensive apartment in NYC? Perhaps one in an outer borough or upstate NY? Good question! I wish I knew the answer. For some reason I was guided directly across the Hudson River from where I now live.
Whispers in my ear, a visit to a friend who lives in Jersey City, several references on TV and at the movies about “Jersey girls”, and a rare opening of a loft space in a building filled with artists right next door to the building where my good friend lives with her children.
Knowings. This seems to be how I make life decisions these days. Something inside of me just knew that this was the right decision. My dreams and meditations were filled with messages and signs.
There is an element of comfort, an easing out of my life here in Manhattan, to be just across the river. It’s under five minutes by train or ferry.
This past week I have had the opportunity to practice everything I teach. To face my fear, breathe through it, honor my emotions and release them.
I think I cried (I know I did!) buckets of tears for three days straight – feeling deeply the loss of my beautiful home, my neighborhood, my identity as a New Yorker, and of course, the memories.
I was surprised at how raw and intense my emotions were and equally surprised at how quickly the fear and sadness began to change to excitement.
I have the most amazing and supportive friends who leapt to my side to listen, love and encourage me. You know who you are and I deeply, deeply love you!
And…I DANCED! The minute I felt the fear and anxiety creep into my gut, or the sadness into my heart, I put on a happy song (Yes, even THIS happy song) and I danced and I sang.
This is the best medicine there is!
There have been major glitches along the way. My new lease starts on Sunday, June 1st but I couldn’t get out of my old lease until August 30th. So…if anyone out there wants to sublease my beautiful apartment in July and/or August, contact me!
I won’t write another love letter to NYC. You can read the one I wrote in 2012 when I almost moved. I still mean every word of it. But I am excited for the next chapter in my life to unfold. I’ll be part of a vibrant community of artists, who surely will inspire and motivate me to make art again.
I have always loved the hustle and bustle of NYC. My Vata energy craves it and has fed off of it for many years. But Ayurveda teaches that we need to look to opposites for balancing the doshas. I’m hoping that the quiet of Jersey City will be good for me. And if I need a dose of crazy, I’m just five minutes away.
I will always be a Detroit girl, and a NYC girl – I’m just adding a new title to my story. And I’ve always wondered what it was like to be a Jersey girl!
Wish me luck for a smooth transition and please keep me in your prayers. I hope that my story will inspire you a little if you are stuck in a pattern of inertia and fear of change. Once you take the leap, amazing things start to happen. As Marie Forleo always says, “Everything is figure-out-able!” This has been my mantra since this new adventure began!