The Lioness in My Dream Has Returned to Roar

September 30, 2020

Two years ago I was faced with a situation that involved speaking in front of a group of people. It’s not my favorite thing to do and generally, I avoid it at all costs. This was something I was sort of excited about, but nonetheless, slightly terrified.

I went to bed the night before and consciously asked for a dream to help me let go of the fear and anxiety I was experiencing. 

About seven or eight years ago, animals had started showing up in my dreams in the most magnificent ways. While other dreams would quickly fade away, the ones with my animal visitors are etched in my memory as if they happened yesterday. 

Dozens of gorillas on a beach by the ocean. A healing dream with a pigeon in the middle of a forest. A giant black snake who has appeared not once but three times.

This was the case with my Lioness dream. I remember it vividly. It was on the September New Moon, 2018.

I was walking through a large field of tall grass when I came upon a dozen lionesses lying in the grass. I was terrified because I had to walk right by them to get where I needed to go.

As I passed by, one of them got up and started following behind me. I was too afraid to look back. All of a sudden a black door frame appeared in front of me. Not a door – just the door frame. 

I walked through the frame with the Lioness following behind me and then woke from the dream. I remember feeling that all of the fear and anxiety had been wiped away! That evening I was able to speak to the group of people and actually enjoy my time with them.

I’d printed out a photo of the Lioness and put it on the little altar I’d set up. It’s no coincidence that the event I was doing was leading a group in a shamanic journey to the Lower World, which is where I always go to meet up with the animal spirits.

The reason I’m sharing my dream is that early on this year the Lioness returned to me – and continues to visit me – in my dreams, in journeys, and even during my waking state.

She is giving me permission to Roar.

2020 has been the year for me to exercise my throat chakra. To speak my Truth. To learn how to set boundaries. To let go of needing to be liked. Anyone else having this experience?

This beautiful Lioness nudges me when I consider holding back because I know people will bristle at what I have to say. I’m getting stronger with each word I write. With each conversation I have. 

This morning, like most mornings, I did what always lifts my mood and that’s hopping on my bike and going for a ride down by the river who has played a major role in my own healing – the Mighty Mahicanituk, AKA the Hudson River.

I’m on a boardwalk that is not very crowded – especially on weekday mornings. And yet I am practically the only person not wearing a mask. If I had to guess, I’d say 99% of the adults and children (even some babies) are masked up tightly and the few who are not have one dangling somewhere in plain sight. Under their chin. On their wrist.

Yes, I’m writing about masks again.

I’m giving you this visual because I know that not all of you are living in a city in the Northeast, where mask-wearing seems to be a religion. I’ve spoken with friends and family who live in suburbs or in rural areas where life seems somewhat normal. It is full-on maskland where I live.

I try to be kind. Try to be understanding. Knowing that it’s either fear, virtue-signaling, or just plain compliance – believing that the government (via the mainstream media) cares about their health. But, really? Think fluoride in the water, chemtrails, GMOs, and food subsidies for the farmers who grow them, environmental policies that allow the poisoning of our rivers, lakes, oceans, etc. 

Newsflash! The government does not care about our health.

Do you really think this is about a virus and keeping us all healthy?

No. It’s about control and ushering in a New World Order.

If you’ve just been watching/reading the mainstream news, (and yes, this includes NPR) then you might not even be aware of what’s really going on.

This quote pretty much sums it up:

“Remember when mandatory vaccinations, cashless society, facial recognition, digital tracking, mass censorship, microchips and 5G infrastructure construction used to be a conspiracy theory only 6 months ago?…Yeah me too” — Sayer Ji

In Jersey City where I live, the C-19 graph on their health and human services website clearly shows that death rates have been hovering close to zero for FOUR MONTHS! Long before masks were mandated. While the wearing of them is still not a LAW, only a mandate, people without masks are being denied entry everywhere.

The high death counts in my state and the one next door (New York) were due to gross mismanagement in the hospitals and nursing homes along with highly skeptical data.  As far as I’m concerned, both governors should be held accountable. But, I won’t hold my breath.

The CDC recently updated estimated infection fatality rates for Covid19. Here are the updated survival rates by age group: 0-19: 99.997%, 20-49: 99.98%, 50-69: 99.5%, 70+: 94.6%.

So, Covid19 has a recovery rate of around 99+% and people are still jumping back from me because I don’t have a mask on? 

Inside (and sometimes, yes, muttering under my breath) I’m screaming:

“Take off your mask!! Stop breathing in carbon dioxide, toxins, bacteria, etc. Where is your common sense? This is not about a virus!” For the life of me, I don’t understand why people do not see what is happening before their very eyes. Oh, wait! It’s because they’re watching the news.

Lung ailments are on the rise. Ditto staph infections and acne (or maskne, as they’re calling it), especially in children and teenagers. Headaches, hypoxia (we’re meant to breathe oxygen, people!), depression, anxiety are all happening with alarming rates. How do you think your immune system is doing from you wearing a mask for hours on end? Of course, mainstream media will likely try to debunk all of these claims if they even mention them at all. I don’t know, every one of them seems like common sense to me.

I am especially disturbed by parents who have already grown accustomed to this and are doing nothing to stop it. Their children have a look of resignation about them and seem to have gotten used to it. 

This strange new world is one of anti-social germaphobes.

I’m in a battle with my local farmer’s market who will not let me shop without a mask. I didn’t budge until they threatened the farmer I buy from and I was worried he would get in trouble for selling to me.

I will not wear a muzzle that not only inhibits my health (breathing carbon dioxide, bacteria, and God knows what else instead of oxygen) but also because it is a symbol of oppression and compliance.

If you’re not already concerned that you’re being harmed by this mask madness, maybe the speculation that wearing a mask day in and day out, depriving your cells of oxygen, may up your risk for cancer. Just some food for thought.

If your governor told you to put a plastic bag over your head, would you? How far will you go in complying with these harmful baseless mandates?

Face masks and the making of them has become big business. Ditto, their evil twin, social distancing, where you can literally buy plastic bubble shields as big as hula hoops to keep you or your customers at a “safe” distance from one another. 

This is madness.

The fact that I could easily walk into a store with a crocheted mask or cotton bandana on my face and be “following the rules” clearly shows that this has nothing to do with health.

So, I go about my life without a mask and check places that I used to frequent off of my list if they deny me entry. 

You see, this is how brilliantly planned this all was. The government has threatened all of the small businesses with huge fines if they allow people into their shops/restaurants/markets without a mask. They encourage them to hand sanitize the crap out of customers, take their temperatures as if they’re health care professionals, limit the number of people allowed, etc.

I wouldn’t be surprised if these businesses are also receiving money if they stick to the playbook.

What playbook? Yes, there’s a Covid19 Playbook. In fact, there are too many to count. Do an internet search (hopefully not Google – try Duck Duck Go or Brave instead) for “Covid19 Playbook” and hundreds will appear. Isn’t that so odd?

There’s a playbook for pre-schools. A playbook for contract tracing. A mask guidance playbook. And on and on and on. Hundreds of them.

Of course, there’s a playbook, because last year on October 18, 2019, a fictional pandemic exercise called “Event 201” happened in New York City, put on by the Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation, the Johns Hopkins Center for Health Security, and the World Economic Forum. Wasn’t that convenient timing? You can read more about it here.

If small businesses do not band together and fight this, we are doomed. Personally, I will not enter your establishment, no matter how much I like it if you make me wear a mask.

“Oh, just put a mask on, Barbara. What’s the big deal? It’s just a mask.”

I’m not doing this to be obstinate, I’m doing this for two reasons.

One, because I believe deeply in sovereignty and my right to make decisions about my own body, and two, in an attempt to wake people up to the world they are creating by their compliance.

And no, you wearing a mask doesn’t protect me and vice versa. Please don’t believe everything they’re telling you on CNN or your propaganda channel of choice. If they really cared about your health they would be bombarding you with information about sunshine, Vitamin D, Vitamin C, Zinc, healing herbs, eating healthy, meditation, spending time in Nature, just to name a few.

I have spent the last decade devoting my life to healing and helping others heal. This is why I cannot simply comply and move on from this subject.

There is NO LAW that says we have to wear a mask. Not yet, anyway. Last week at a rally at the state capital, I learned that New Jersey is moving to pass a law to require mask-wearing. And along with it, a $500.00 fine for not complying. In a state where deaths attributed to Covid (and we all know the numbers are a joke) have been hovering near zero for FOUR months.

Lots of people in the holistic health community, be it yoga, Ayurveda, energy healing, etc. like to believe that love and light are all we need right now. Oh, how I wish.

Don’t get me wrong. Every day, I send love and light out into the world. And every day I work hard to raise my own vibration and not get stuck in all the negativity and pure evil that’s out there.

Maybe you’re tired of me writing about this and wish I’d go back to writing about Ayurveda and Nature. I hope that day comes soon!  But, for now, I have to listen to the Lioness or she won’t leave me alone.

And, by the way, you don’t have to agree with anything I say or do. That is your right just as it is my right to speak my Truth.

I’m going to be okay and I wish the same for all of you. I have not buried my head in the sand. I’m not in any fear. I still feel joy in my heart every single day. And gratitude. 

But awareness is crucial right now.

A neighbor I hadn’t seen in months let me hug him the other day and I was shocked. How sad that I even had that thought.

This is the world the powers that be are trying to create for us. And those of you wearing masks and going along with the mandates are, I’m sorry to say, making their job easy.

Just like the “good” Germans did for the Nazis. Some people got really angry at me when I said that before. But, it’s the truth. Hitler didn’t start out with concentration camps. It was a slow campaign of compliance. 

So, think about this when you start following rules like standing on floor stickers to keep you six feet apart from others.

“A society without touch – that’s what this is all about. You are a free sovereign being and freedom is your birthright. Let Love guide you, not fear.” — Ralph Smart

Here’s my treat for you today – another Ralph Smart video to shake you, wake you, and help you be a part of creating a BETTER world, not a world of slavery, and devoid of human contact.

These are confusing times. Some of the upheaval and changes are necessary. We have been very disrespectful towards each other and the planet we live on. But we must keep our eyes and ears open (not via mainstream media!) and most importantly keep our intuition on high alert. Tune in. Meditate. Spend time in Nature. Hug. Laugh. Take off your mask. Don’t leave it dangling on your wrist. Throw it away. And for God’s sake, stop with the mask selfies! Until we all take them off, nothing will change. Embrace the sovereign being that you are and fight hard to keep it that way. 

And then, do your part by sharing. Write about it, have conversations. Share your own words or share mine, if they resonate. Together we can make a better world! 

As Ralph Smart would say “ROAR, Deep Divers!” 🙂

Much love,


  1. Truth is so important to share. Thanks for sharing 💕

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